what hurts the most...

what hurts the most,
was being so close,
and having so much to say...
and watching u...
walk away...

i'm not afraid to cry...
but i'm afraid of lies...

confused...

I'm confused...
am i making a right choice and doing the right thing???
feel so lost...
all the random thoughts just keep on popping out in my mind...
maybe i am too demanding...

to be frank to each other,
it seems to be a very easy thing...
but it is the hardest thing to do...
dis world seems to be full of lies...
and the truth still lies behind...

my little target...

my little targets for the next few months...

1. study 100x harder...
2. try to make myself smart...
3. no more procrastinating...
4. do more exercise...
5. muz do HOMEWORK!!!
6. pay attention in class...
7. reduce my coffee addiction... (dun wan memory loss) >.<
8. be more gentle...
9. no fighting with others...
10. stop blur-ing...
11. reduce weight...
12. jump more...
13. look more presentable...
14. always calm and think smartly...
15. sleep earlier...
16. stop gossiping...
17. spend wisely...
18. drink more milk... =.=
19. do faster during exam...
20. love my frens more...

a big lesson...

"results of u guys are sux dis term... but u all should learn from the sux experience... coz my results last time oso sux like u all's..."

(Mr. David Wang, 2009)

i should stop my emo-ness here and keep dis lesson in my brain always...
i'm not stupid... things could turn up to be much better...
yes... add oil gal...
no matter wat... i sure can defeat them...
becoz i can do much better den dis... i must...

and mr. david, happy birthday... XD

god bless me...

I'm a little screwdriver that screw myself up...
sigh...
i hope it is still not too late for everything...
tmr will still be a better day right???
i hope so...

god bless me...

contradict...

sometimes,
i hope people can read my mind...
understand what i am thinking and what i want...
and how i feel...

sometimes,
i scare if someone can read my mind...
knowing everything i am thinking,
and how i feel...

but if i would have a chance to choose...
i will still choose not to let people to read my mind...
maybe i am just someone who always feel insecured...

tagged by yaw kwan... =)

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed ?
secret... XD

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning ?
happy... wondering how should i spend my day today... i love holiday... XD

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo with ?
my close fren... jia wen...

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled ?
of coz not... lolx...

5. Will you ever donate blood ?
no until now... coz not heavy enuf... if i ever have da chance, it means i GAIN WEIGHT!!! *touch wood*

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex ?
yes of coz...

7. Do you want someone to be dead ?
of coz not... im angel... >.<

8. What does your last text message say ?
lets go eat kimchi... ^^

9. What are you thinking right now ?
i hope my holiday is endless... feel so lazy to do anything...

1o. Do you want someone to be with you right now ?
err... not really... prefer to be alone...

11. What was the time you went to bed last night ?
about 2 something... as usual lor...

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
forgot lor...

13. Is someone on your mind right now ?
yaya... yaw kwan... doin his tag mar...

14. Who was the last person who text you ?
peiye...

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz:
1. Muney
2. Peiye
3. Jiahao
4. Vincent
5. Li Hui
6. Jeff
7. Chiu
8. Yaw Kwan
9. Jia Yee
10. Ching Yih

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with ?
she is single i guess... haha...

16. Is no.3 a male or a female ?
male...

17. If no.7 and no.1 get together , would it be a good?
it would be weird...

18. What is no.1 studying about ?
biochem in UPM

19. When was the last time you chatted with them ?
who wor???

20.Is no.4 single?
think so gua...

21. Say something about no.2
my best fren...

22. What do you think about no.3 & no.6 being together ?
jiahao sure get bullied... T.T

23. Describe no.9?
my form 5 classmate... a pretty gal... =)

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight ?
wahhh... sure very excited...

25. Do you like no8 ?
of coz... i love all my frens... and he is a great 1... too bad he is forgetful... T.T