When you are happy, you feel lazy to blog, because you will keep using the same excuses (eg: awwwhhh I'm so tired today enjoyed too much...)
But when you are sad, you will never feel lazy, because you need a channel to let go whatever you are feeling...
I dunno what I am feeling right now... but I just feel like blogging...
and yea I got stuck here... I dunno what I wanna blog about...
Today's special: Mummy, I talk to my bears every night okie... Please don't ever think that you can steal them without me knowing, tell me they are dirty and kindly donate it... No matter what, I LOVE them... Don't ever have the thought that you can take them away from me...
My world is now left with me and my bears... Perhaps... ~*i.love.my.bears*~
Friends always come and go... It is us, whether we are willing to make efforts, to spend time with our friends, to maintain the friendship...
I got this from Zi Cheng's blog. Short and simple, but very true. How many people do have their BFF??? I always wanted to have, at least 1... but I doubt if I have... Perhaps it is my own problem, sometimes I can be quite anti-social...
Sometimes I wish there is a BFF to listen to all my problems, sometimes I wish there is a BFF who can hang out with me, sometimes I wish there is a BFF who can stay by my side whenever I feel sad.
But why is it so hard to get a BFF???
Today's special: I need a BFF... Please grant me with 1...
Specially dedicated to 3 of my best frens... (You should know who you are...)
I miss the time we used to spend together... I miss the time you nagged me telling me this not good that not good... I miss the time we smsed day and night just talking crap... I miss the time you sacrificed your bed time talking to me in msn... I miss the time you checked on me everyday to make sure I have a healthy lifestyle... I miss the time you played with my calculator and refused to tell me how to erase... I miss the time we threatened each other just to get what we want... I miss the beeping sound of my phone and I know it is you who sms me...
I will miss the time when we sit in the car just plain talking and yet don't feel like going home... I will miss the time when we tell each other that we must stop talking at Xpm and yet we never do it... I will miss the time when we tend to spread emo-ness to each other... I will miss the time when you were trying to convince me that life isn't hard at all... I will miss the time when we used to take photos randomly and camwhoring... I will miss all the nicknames you gave me even though it sounds childish... I will miss the time when we actually trust each other so much and share all the darkest secrets... I will miss the time you tease me and challenge me to fight back... I will miss the time we scribble on sticky notes and stick it everywhere... I will miss the time when we actually care for each other so much...
I miss you, you and YOU, right now.
~to be continued~ Today's special: Sentimental? Emotional? I think I had evolved to become a crybaby. I cried 2 times today.
The silver moon sailed across the silky sky. Looking at the sky, I felt a sudden of emptiness. I have no idea why I always have the ability to ruin my life.
I always believe things could turn up to be better, much better. It will be better. It must be better.
Today's special: Have you ever lost something which seems very ordinary but you only realize its importance after u lost it? I think... I lost my reminder. A reminder of homework.
Finally it was the end of my beloved holiday and I had to go back to college today, meaning that I'm going back to life with books, books and BOOOOOOKS...
Today was the scariest day because we got back our trials result. Errr well, I didn't put in much hopes since I studied last minutes. Okie, again I was procrastinating, I admit I only touched my notes the day before exam. I wonder why I'm a lazy bum bum, must be another recessive allele...
I came out with a conclusion after I got my results back.
Wai Leng doesn't know how to write an essay.
Except for my ESL, all my subjects actually got pulled down because of my essays. I think I got problem in time management, none of my essays were completed. =.=
Lessons learned in this exam: 1. Sleep more the day before exam so that I won't feel sleepy the next day. 2. Stop touching books the day before exam, touch it one month before. (Okie, means now... >.<) 3. Do it quickly, stop taking my own sweet time dreaming. 4. eh I forgot... 5. I remember got 5 wor... =.=
Add oil to finals and do more past year papers. Start from NOW!!! ( Why am I still blogging... Zzz)
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No electricity at home just now!!! So scary. Candles saved me. Okie, my brother saved me. I'm glad that I'm still here to blog. For those who doesn't know how important is light for me. I tell you. I must sleep with my light ON.
Today's special: Someone kept on appearing in my dreams in this few days. I wonder why.
I just couldn't forgive myself for making such a big mistake... Can't I just open my eyes BIG BIG to see everything clearly??? Feel so down... Can't concentrate at all... Emo girl... I gotta forget everything and start studying now... I know I must... Hope things will turn better... A lot more better... Much more better... God bless me... I know I can do better... Stay strong... because I know I can be much stronger... much better...
I am fine. I believe. ~*blurry and not gonna be blur anymore*~
I'm confused... am i making a right choice and doing the right thing??? feel so lost... all the random thoughts just keep on popping out in my mind... maybe i am too demanding...
to be frank to each other, it seems to be a very easy thing... but it is the hardest thing to do... dis world seems to be full of lies... and the truth still lies behind...
